2008-03-21 - 10:23 a.m.
sheepy sheep
If you want to see what's new, I suggest (today at least) checking out Scott's Blog.
if you're too darn lazy do do that-- I'll give it to you in a sentence. My parked car was hit by a truck from a major delivery company, it only effected the hood, it took 40 minutes for the police to arrive, and... I had to take half a day off work... which I didn't want to do.
BLERG.
Lately I have been suffering from my trade mark extreme exhaustion. (yay) and having vertigo. When I was home for lunch yesterday (before my car was creamed) I took some iron. Later in the evening (around 8pm) I took a nap with Katie, and felt much better.
I still feel a bit dizzy, and feel very saddened by the idea of taking iron every day again. I hate taking pills. I'm pretty anti medication. But sometimes the lesser of evils is the medication.
I slept in the recliner last night with Katie. It was like a slumber party. I picked her up this morning to put her in bed, and my ankle rolled (dumb ankles) and I fell down. I yelled for Scott to come and get Katie. I was ok, it doesn't hurt. My body is just dumb like that. a muscle will spasm and all of the sudden I'm falling down a flight of stairs.
I'm Lucky that I only fell twice during my pregnancy. (once at the beginning, I tripped/rolled on a ball. Again at the end, when I tried to stand up with out help. Gravity is a harsh mistress. The second fall I went to L&D because I was nervous.)
Life is good, but stressful. we'll be getting estimates on the car this weekend, and hopefully some auto repair place can get it fixed ASAP!
Derringer Meryl [sheep] Out
2008-03-17 - 10:34 a.m.
mood ring
Sometimes in life, you have to make hard decisions. Choices that seem momentous and heavy. Things that hurt, choosing between here and there. After a lot of thought... and a lot of pain on my part. I choose me. Not in a selfish way. I'd like to think I'm not that way. Maybe I am. Really not the point here. Sometimes in a person's life, you make choice between everyone else, and you. Sometimes you make this choice 60 times daily... sometimes you only make it once. It really depends on the person, and the situation.
This time. After a long time... I choose me. I feel often as though I've painted myself into a corner. Too often I cling to things that I've over invested in. I feel like some melodramatic doctor from ER pounding on a corpse's chest, begging for them not to be dead. I think I've mourned long enough. Agonized long enough. I understand now. I think I'm ok to back away now.
In other news:
Katie says Cat, Momma, Dada, Kitty, Dog, Yes, and a smattering of other words. She is picking up on them excellently. She also has added to her repertoire of cuteness, Nodding YES. She mostly (prior to this) shook her head No. Now that she can do both, it's adorable. :) She continues to wake up during the night. Considering she is normally a great sleeper -- it's unusual. I was thinking the other day about how she's going to go into nursery this year, and that it'll be so weird. I think though, it'll be good to have her play with other kids. It's hard to believe sometimes how big she's getting. I keep telling myself that since i only want three kids, I need to soak in every minute of her. Let her be the way she is, as long as she can. I am, however, very much looking forward to Potty training, and even sooner than that, weaning. I love Katie and spending time with her, but It's about time to have my body back.
I'm still working on Katie's invites... since it's going to be an out door party, I need a back up in case the weather goes bad, yeah? I'm still trying to work that out. It's been suggested that a church house would work, but I don't know how we'd cook all the barbecue? Still thinking, for sure.
I'll be sure to take lots of pictures of Katie in her easter dress. She's such a cute girl. She wore her St. Patrick's day dress to Church yesterday (we figured, why not?) and she discovered that she can't crawl in a dress very well. She did rig something up, that helped her get around quickly. Which was good.
I"m still anxious to get out of our place. I'd love to move. I'd love to be out of our tiny condo where we can hear our neighbors. (at least the loud neighbor moved out!) I'd love to be in our final home soon. I guess we're still waiting for some pieces to fall into place.
Scott has applied for another promotion. I'm excited, it'd work out well as long as the time period doesn't change. We are trying to become babysitter free by June, as our babysitter will be going off to College. It's so weird to see her go (Scott's Sister) Since I met her when she was 14 (the same age as her brother now) and the idea of him leaving for college in 4 years, well it boggles my mind. (It'd be more like 5 years, since his birthday is in the fall, but still!) Life is ... strange and wonderful.
Here's to a new week. Hope it goes well.
Derringer Meryl [Oh Well] Out
2008-03-12 - 11:09 p.m.
thin and tattered
New Layout! It was about time, don't you think? Yes.
I was debating for a long time between this song (which I love, by Jerry Holkins, I've always thought he has a beautiful voice) and I wanted to do a Ludo one. I think this one is much prettier than the one I had planned for Ludo's Love me Dead. Maybe I should just do a tooth brush for that one when I do have time to do it? LOL
anyway, I thought I'd comment on it. It's such a beautiful piece, I couldn't dice the lyrics up, so I just did the title. The following are the Lyrics:
'twas the twelving day of Everfair
when fell my maid of raven hair
beneath her cloven standard of the wren
and damn that roiling goblin horde
we'd almost slain the overlord
but i could never roll an elf again
"The Queen of Bells and Battle-Downs"
she wore the title like a crown
Foes so deep a man would drown, but she still stood alone
a princess and a duchess both
and sworn to nine prestigious oaths,
her duties, they would take her to that twisting spire of stone
Against his tower, a silhouette
She called like a coronet
And the green sea of his armies burst from warrens far below
The pacts he'd made with demonkind
Had rent his thin and tattered mind
And hellish princedoms occupied the arrow he let go
They took her through the crowded square
And laid her at the temple stair
The sorcelled barb of Arudair beyond their healing arts
there stands a circlet on her brow
that turns the blades of men around
But if Belruel could hear me now
This song would pierce her heart
'twas the twelving day of Everfair
when fell my maid of raven hair
beneath her cloven standard of the wren
damn that roiling goblin horde!
and damn their hell-bound the overlord!
but i could never roll an elf again
I found the image on my space, someone (ironically) was using it for role playing. I unfortunately don't know the artist :( SAD!
For those of you who don't get the song (i'm looking at my co-workers here) I'm going to say that it's about D&D or table top role playing. Weird thing to sing about, but it's a beautiful song. I promise. Or maybe I'm just that big of a geek.
To be honest I don't get to role play that much anymore. I did role play with groups online before i met Scott, but had never played D&D. Has far too many rules for my liking. ;) We just pretty much played pretend with my friends before. I'm far to embarassed to say WHAT we pretended, but it was fun. I miss them from time to time. We're such geeks!
Anyway. I was reading about PAX today, and while I'd love to go, it's really not a realistic dream, not for me. I think if we have the Cashey monies, and someone else we know is going, I'd send Scott off to have a good time. We'd also have to find someone to watch katie all day. :) :P oh well :) I'd like to be moving that time of year as well :) So who knows! :)
Anyway. I am going to go put Katie in bed, She konked out in the car, and I need to put her in bed since she's asleep on the couch :)
Derringer Meryl [Had rent his thin and tattered mind] Out
2008-03-06 - 11:53 a.m.
the mark of the beast
You wouldn't know it to LOOK at me, or my house... or for that matter, my desk-- but I love organization. I like little nifty things that allow me to organize. Toy boxes, totes, bags, file cabinets, dressers, drawers, etc... I love it. I would love to be the guy on the Clean Sweep show who gets to go buy nifty things to put your mail in, and little boxes to store your photos in as well. I like things to have a place. A place to go. Right now I"m looking for a toy box. Katie got a toy box about ... two months ago? End of January? Ish? Anyway She's starting to out grow it. It was a good price at the time, and we needed one. It's nice to have somewhere to put her stuff at the end of the day too. *nods* yes. However, We're running out of space. And considering that I'm going to get her presents (and we've got her presents) for her birthday... I imagine it's only going to get worse.
I also recently went through Katie's clothes, and put them away. :) HUZZAH! I loved it. I love putting things away. I think my major problem is that I often feel like things don't have a place to go. Like our mail. :P But I have a filing box and cabinet. I can't wait till we get to someplace with more space so things can go where they are supposed to! *sigh*
I thought I'd just share my geeky love of all things storage.
PS: I love cleaning OTHER people's homes. Doing my own is a burden. I love cleaning someone else's though. Don't ask me. I'm weird.
Derringer Meryl [s'marvelous] Out
2008-03-04 - 12:19 p.m.
march 2008
It's MARCH! Welcome March!
It's hard to believe that Easter is coming up so soon. I need to get Katie a tiny easter dress. I love dresses for her. I want something Spring-ish. I'm not sure if Scott will enjoy me purchasing new clothing for katie, but it's not like I do it every day-- Just once a month :D
I'm also going out and getting Katie her Doll for her first birthday. :) I want her to get a doll for her first birthday, and get her picture taken with it. Though she might not be amenable to the idea.
I'm also excited that Super Smash Brother's Brawl is coming out this weekend. We're going to go pick it up at midnight, and then Scott can finally meet my friend from Gamestop. I'm such a geek. I really think it's important for Scott to meet him. He really helped me not go crazy during High school, and I think that's important enough of a person for your husband to meet. LOL
Oh, we were in the car last night getting food and I was all giddy happy that Scott wasn't at work, and I was doing something slightly crazy like meowing or making up a song (which I do on occasion, my coworkers are probably astonished at this point, this doesn't sound like the Meryl they know at all!) I was also possibly, pretending like my hand was a puppet. Anyway... I was doing all or some of this and Scott turns to Katie in the back seat and says "Some Day Katie, you'll know that mommy is on the verge of insanity EVERY day of her life." I just laughed. And of course it wasn't a "hahaha" laugh, it was more of a weird psycho laugh "ehehehehe" or something. I don't know, ask me to demonstrate if you ever see me, and I'll try to comply.
I discussed with Scott that he has the opportunity for more social interaction than I do. He just said "I'm home all day... you aren't" And I said "You're home all day and could go out. I'm at work all day, and come home and Katie goes to sleep, i can't go anywhere." and he just shrugged.
Also, I should note, I got confused and said I was home all day. I really do brink on the insane side quite often.
Scott and I watched No reservations Last night. Mom was letting us borrow it. It was good. I think they marketed the film wrong and so it didn't do very well in the box office. I hate it when some film executive does something crappy like that. I mean that movie had 3 relatively popular names in it (or at least familiar) I think they set it up as more of a feel good movie about Catherine Zeta Jones and that Little girl from Little Miss Sunshine, instead of being a romantic comedy like it was. Oh well. I guess it's not my problem they probably got hosed on profits.
Somedays, I really miss working retail. No offense to my current job, but in retail, you can usually feel smarter than your customer. Your customer is coming to you because (in the case of working for Gamestop) they are a mom, who doesn't know anything about video games or ANYTHING, and they really need help finding something appropriate for their 10 year old. I miss that.
I was trying to start up a video gaming blog. I don't really game enough to do it though.... I have played Zak and Wiki though, I have to say I do enjoy it -- but I'm not much of a puzzle wiz, Scott is much better at it. The controls are very simple, and sometimes the puzzles are a tad complex (in my opinion, I get frustrated easily though) I highly recommend it. We finally got a second wii-mote and can play Super Mario Galaxy together, though it's a bit of a challenge with Katie around. :)
We got a lot of our home renovations (tiny renovations) done this weekend. A new sink faucet, a new thermostat, and new blinds. I am really pleased. We still need to take the extra slats out of the blinds, but that project is for another day. :) I like when a home starts coming together ... I feel like it's time to move again. I know Scott wants to enjoy the house for a little while, and I'm cool with that. But I have my eye on a few different houses, and I would really like to have one. I think in May we will start the process to get pre-approved, so we know what price range we can dream in :)
Want to know something neat? You don't have to get drunk to not remember what you did the night before. You just have to be extremely exhausted. I can't remember most of last night. ... thanks to sheer exhaustion. HUZZAH!
Derringer Meryl [and know you know] Out
